Tuesday, 29 April 2008

b for bust-ups , breakups + ban-sei!

i'm feeling rather uncomfortable after taking dinner at 8:30pm.

any dieter worth her salt knows that eating after 8pm is pure evil. it is more acceptable to starve to death than to succumb to hunger after 8pm. [ok, i'm being melodramatic]

feeling a bit pissed at myself-- what's the use of hitting the gym if i give in to dinner [make that supper] when i get home?! duh, at least i had some damage control, i didn't let it escalate into a crazy pig out fest. *proud proud smile

but saruon's scrambled egg was so wicked, if i knew how to make them, my boyfriend would never ever even think about leaving me. haha but our family has weird tastes.

during last year's open house, aunts came to our home to cook, and one of the dishes was stir-fried veg, which nobody would touch, but

in the morning,
dad: wow, this is delicious!
aunt [to mum]: what do you feed your husband usually..?!
mum: he's exaggerating

during lunch,
me: wow, this veg is heaven sent!
aunt [recounts what dad said in morning]
mum: ..

anyway, i've been reading mel's blog lately-- she's the most blessed girl i know.

she's gorgeous, appeared in seventeen, has an amazing body, is wealthy and dripping with branded stuff, has a loving family and seems to be a diligent student as well. i would kill to be her.

anyway i was noting that she's seemingly perfect but she's a sucker for her boyfriend, who is probably hot though i have no comment as i'm only into guys with single lids.

ying just broke up with hers. i was darn sad, i'd hoped they could be together forever. before the actual breakup there was this why? talk which girls actually do with their boyfriends. i was shocked.

mel's boyfriend pretended to 'need space' as an april's fool's joke and she had the why? talk with him as well. i never thought people actually did that! ying and mel both justify the why? talk under 'i loved him so much, i wasn't ready to give up easily'.

what did i do when yang dumped me?

i said, 'yeah, i was gonna tell you on monday anyway.'

i should get into taoism, i'm imbalanced.

ban sei!

i thought i had 4 asses due this week but in actuality it's 2. one's completed, one more left to go! aza!

Sunday, 27 April 2008

a for assignments

.. which i struggle to do a good job on time. the introductory microeconomics assignment i handed up today was shit. i wonder what possessed me to drop it into the box so friggin' early!! and what possessed me to write the entire assignment in essay form instead of labeling them-- i mean, i usually adore labels and go around asking lecturers if i can label my essays!

what is wrong with me?!

duh, on to happier memories. monash street carnival marks my first taste of uni activity. my high school friends were shocked at the size of the carnival-- it was tiny compared to our high school's. read: lousy.

somehow we still managed to hang there for nearly 5hours-- eating sugary calorie-laden food on-and-off, watching the.. what's an apt adjective?.. weird performances, looking around and only noticing the skinny, pretty girls.

they say i've lost weight, and asked how i did it. i'm not sure, but having an easily irritated tummy helps. i'm trying to create a calorie deficit, too, which translates into me having this 15-minute struggle daily during lunch, debating whether i'm truly hungry. i felt ridiculous last friday as i paced to-and-fro the cafeteria and the bench i was reading on, wondering if i'm hungry enough to eat. i mean, i feel hungry, but the hunger switches to this bloated nausea when i enter the cafeteria. apani?

haha i was light enough for shahid to lift me and dunk me into this big bucket of water, about 5 feet tall, at the carnival. which meant i was wet when suat yee dragged me to take photos with bus company, a local band which had won the battle of the band last year.

we were leading the keyboardist eugene to the tent to take photos when i saw this guy who resembled the lead from summer without love, sitting on a chair and strumming his guitar. walau-eh, looks like a korean, small single-lidded eyes and this drug addict look (all my exes look like there's something wrong with them), so my style!

of course, i dragged suat yee back to the tent to take photos with him-- turned out he's the lead of bus co, named samuel oh, a good christian boy. of course, we knew nothing about the band then, just see lengzai--> take photo with lengzai. i did my own research.

my crazy friends asked me to talk to him but too nervous la, my don't-care-about-rep days are over.

why are all the hot guys religious? thanking God for giving them hot looks?

anyway lots of people have been nice to me lately, so when i saw this hand-phone in the ladies, i did the right thing and returned it, as
  1. good karma etc., and
  2. it was this ancient k700i, which i'll probably have to pay someone to take it
argh feel hungry but it'll probably pass after i go downstairs. i despise assignments!

Saturday, 26 April 2008

omo the eng ver

it's 11:28pm, 28minutes past my usual bedtime, but i'm in shock! my so-called private blog was actually public! omo it's cruel to use real names online, hope i didn't get anybody into trouble.

omo am i stupid or is serene just geng? so 'kiong' can read my blog?

walau-eh i'm a private person, 1st time felt so exposed.. feel so paiseh haha

had dinner with uncle alfred and aunt penny. uncle alfred you're so free, can make semi-prank calls to me, i thought you were the warren who hit my car, almost scolded you.

anyway today i went to the police station again to add warren's car registration number to my report. i felt apprehensive about going alone but my parents are abnormal.

case 1
my parents
  1. made a fuss over the fact that i'd went out with my friends twice this month, both times i was home before midnight
  2. let me file my police reports. alone
normal parents
  1. are cool with their 19-year-old offspring going out with friends
  2. usually accompany their kids to police stations.
what the..?!! admittedly i was pissed but i didn't wanna seem needy. nonetheless i still sms-ed yang, and he called me and asked me not to do so many things alone, especially when i don't feel like it. however, he was in taiping so he couldn't come accompany me. i never thought i could feel so.. neutral towards him. i thought i was gonna be in love with him forever and ever. and ever.

case 2
my parents brought me to national park with their friends and their kids.

dad's so used to not having me around that during registration to enter the elephant sanctuary, he registered for my neighbor's entire family but left out my name.

what the..?! this is definitely not normal.

and during a boat ride they dumped me with their friends and boarded the boat together.

well, it wasn't a big deal as we were just crossing the river to go home but my pretty neighbor looked so shocked. i'll bet she'd never been left behind by her parents before.