ever since fish realized i have like, half of the self-esteem i used to have in high school [my confidence peaked at 15.. and then 17 and it's been a downhill slide since then. the less you know about life, the better you feel about yourself], he embarked on this 野猪大改造 makeover thing for me.
he scrutinizes me then asks his brothers, 'how can we make more guys give min a second look?'
'hah,' i rolled my eyes. 'it should be, how can we make more guys give me a first look?'
'u have low self-esteem!' they'll groan. 'it's cliched but confident girls are hot!'
fish also likes to ask rich guys what their ideal girl would be so i can have a blueprint on what guys like *rolls eyes* i hang out with him one night and i lose my eyes because i roll them around too much!
'i have a friend who's wealthy and cute and crazy. oh my gosh he has the weirdest taste! i think he'll like you!'
other suggestions by fish:
1. 'do something about your hair! like a tiny braid framing your face! hmm.. african style.. yep i'll definitely notice a girl with something dangly on her hair. it'll make you stand out! do something special!'
i ended up chopping off my hair. but girls if u like fish who s *grudgingly* kinda cute in a hippie type of way, feel free to embrace the hippie hairstyle..
2. 'get braces!..'
all my friends have been suggesting i fix my teeth since i was 17 but my dentist recommended waiting until i'm 21. so now i am, and when aunt alicia, aunt penny and uncle alfred said what a difference it was gonna make i started daydreaming about life with straight teeth like fann's. will look for a good orthodontist after finals. hopefully i won't chicken out again. a mouthful of painful metal for 2 years?!!! argh
3. '.. or just be confident!'
fish says i don't have to change anything else if i change my self-perception. ok ok! will work on it! the guys can't spend every outing telling me nice things about myself! but things have improved heaps from last year when i had nightmares where everybody was laughing at the fat me on a semi regular basis. so there!