when i was 14 i attended the cruelest boot camp of my life.
it was called the 'patrol leader training camp' or 小队长训练营 which sounds all cute and harmless.. and made the suffering even more bitter.
for 3 days we were not allowed to shower, brush our teeth or shit. literally. we survived on very little sleep, but could never be sure, because our watches were taken away from us and we slept according to orders - but never very deeply, because we had to be awake and ready to go at the sound of the whistle.
imagine living like that, while participating in physical training with an egg each which we were supposed to protect from breakage throughout the camp.
many times i thought i was going to keel over and die, and i wondered why we, the youth of the new millennium, had to be subjected to this torture in a civilized society.
a facilitator asked, 'would you like to be a leader?'
yes, of course! who doesn't?
'you see, in every day life, when we are well-rested and clean, we can all be heroes. we can all be motivated, and complete tasks effectively. but the person who can maintain his enthusiasm and spur others on in this kind of situation, that's a true leader - the type we're looking for.'
people are like stained-glass windows.
they sparkle and shine when the sun is out;
but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty if revealed -
only if there is a light from within
- elizabeth kubler-ross
what am i made of? what are you made of?