Saturday, 20 December 2014

cyrano de bergerac

Because Cyrano Agency is one of my favourite movies, I couldn't resist when Sydney Theatre Co showed Cyrano De Bergerac.

So I went with D.

Reading while drinking coffee at a pretty cafe on a Saturday morning is actually a very 惬意 thing to do.

Mussels in wine broth

I had a great time at Cyrano. It was almost a full house.

As with all live performances, the first 15 minutes is spent being lost and thinking everybody looks like Cyrano.

Then you get totally caught up in the story (I didn't read up beforehand so I didn't know how things would pan out).

Richard Roxburgh was so 生动 as Cyrano! 喜怒哀乐都表达得令我印象超深刻!觉得说他一个人撑全场也不为过。如此细腻的情感我坐在最便宜的座位都可以感受!

Cyrano's self-loathing which he hides behind his stubborn pride and reveals only to his best friend, his joy when he thought Roxanne was in love with him, his disappointment when he realised it wasn't the case, hiding his turbulent emotions and helping poor idiotic Christian get Roxanne who spent her life not knowing the truth. It felt like experiencing the entire spectrum of human emotions in 2 hours and 40 minutes.

Let's not forget the funny nanny, the poetic baker.. I love them all!

Christian 傻里傻气的

Roxanne 美翻了
Although I am still broke I say this is money well-spent.

非常感动的2小时!虽然觉得 Cyrano 根本是悲剧。

If I'm in a good mood I might watch the old Cyrano movie over the Christmas season.

Saturday 13 Dec 2014

Thursday, 18 December 2014


my standard weekend consists of hanging out and eating with different people.

last Sunday it was Kepos Street Kitchen with the girls.

i see some of the girls almost every weekend, but this was the first time in a month that we all got together.

Sophy drove.

while waiting the girls made space for me so i can press myself against the wall, in the shade, so i don't burn so quickly.

the comfort of knowing somebody well.

i ordered a southern fried chicken sandwich despite the big ulcer in my mouth which stubbornly refuses to heal despite my consumption of Berocca/mung bean soup/honey.

i know Kepos has a line outside but i think it's a bit overrated.

people why are you lining up?

but who cares about the food when we have presents?!

Kitty and Soph bought presents - Kitty bought me a tiny book 1001 Ways to Friendship (haha, none of us understood where that came from) and Soph got me a pencil set.

Nope, you don't get it.

It is the most beautiful pencil set I have ever laid eyes on.

Who knew Kate Spade did pencils?

I got home and Googled the David Jones website because the only way I can bring myself to use these pencils is if I can restock them. (I couldn't find them on DJ, though.)

I'll also need a slim pencil sharpener.

And actual words in my mind to write down.

If this were a movie I would write a lovely poem about girlie friendships.

Or draw pretty pictures.

Instead I am admiring the pencil set, now sitting on my little Ikea LACK table.

(I am actually so broke I cannot afford a proper desk and chair - I just sit on the floor and it's starting to hurt my back.)

I used to be able to do it but no longer! Ageing is no joke.

The girls are as freaked out as I am about ageing, but together it feels less scary and more funny.

(Also because I'm a year younger than them and I think it's rude to whinge about your age when you're the youngest.)

K is going to Japan and I asked her to get me a toilet-flushing noise machine.

Apparently Japanese girls have this gadget which makes toilet-flushing sounds so they can pee/poop in peace in public toilets.

So ingenious!

I have an irrational fear of letting people hear me poop.

We went shopping after lunch but I didn't buy anything. Seriously, apart from my Jo Malone Red Roses diffuser and Tom Ford Liquid Eyeliner, I really haven't bought anything indulgent for a few months.

And although the diffuser and eyeliner are not cheap, I love them both to bits - plus they don't take up much of my precious space.

Christmas is in the air!

Monday, 15 December 2014

Orangutan in the rain

“I was taking pictures of some Orangutans in Bali and then it started to rain. Just before I put my camera away, I saw this Orangutan took a banana leaf and put it on top on his head to protect himself from the rain! I immediately used my DSLR and telephoto lens to preserve this magic moment. Image location: Bali, Indonesia”  Photo by Andrew Suryono, Indonesia

Another love at first sight moment. Is this not the cutest thing you have seen this year? (Colleague and manager disagree, but I still melt a little every time I see this photo.)

Bored Panda

Thursday, 11 December 2014


The significance of the unicorn dream cannot be overlooked.

All my life I have survived on luck.

So when my luck ran out last year I got very confused.

I was in uncharted territory.

And after a year of nightmares I had my unicorn dream.

Things are going to improve. It's a good sign.

Then I had my hummingbirds dream.

I am usually terrified of birds, and I felt a bit nervous when a couple of the numerous yellow-and-black hummingbirds hopped onto my arm but mostly I was delighted by their cuteness and the buzz from their wings.

I was standing outside ahma's house, next to the swing set, in a safe place with many happy memories.

It's a good sign.

When out shopping with Soph last Saturday I spotted the lovely Olivia Burton hummingbird watch.

Olivia Burton hummingbird watch
 It's a good sign. Even if I cannot afford it.

And then I won AUD200.

I waited and waited for the Visa card to be sent to me.

And today it arrived.

It's a good sign.

Maybe things are going to get better after all :)

Tuesday, 2 December 2014

magical thinking 1

today is one of those days when you wish you were dead. okay, every day is one of those days for me, but today especially so.







i am reading the year of magical thinking.

and i keep getting sidetracked by Joan Didion's photo in 1976 and in, well, recent years.

This is the book's back cover
i know i shouldn't be ageist but i'm terrified of getting old.

i would rather die young.

recently freckles have been surfacing on my face and hands.

and every day i stare at my hands and pray that the freckles will not get worse please.

i stare and i stare, as though my eyes have laser powers which can zap the brown right off.

i think it's only going to get worse, though.



我不想 age gracefully!

i would rather not age at all!!!

人生果然不是一个 wish-granting factory 啊