Tuesday, 21 April 2015

sydney typhoon

悉尼这两天的天气只会令人想死。

风速69km/h+疯狂大雨+连续48小时+低温=连爱雨天的我都有点 demotivated。只想开暖气,电毯,然后赖在床上上网。

(我的天,housemate 刚敲门叫我吃晚饭!这种天气她竟然有心情做饭,不愧是德国人!)

说到德国人就得说我可爱的 Dutch intern 的名言-

we [Dutch] are the cooler Germans.

还有

Austrians are the happy Germans.

原来 Germans are known for being grumpy! 我完全不知道!毕竟只跟两个德国人相处过。

;;;

上周六和姐妹约会,本来是小酌聊天,结果变成小酌跳舞。


请欣赏不同角度看的悉尼歌剧院。(其实当时也真的只有我一个人 high,姐妹们都看过了。)

#姐的人生


好难得的四人合照!


Kitty 说她把我拍的多美多迷人哈哈。爱的视角懂吗。


其实我的梦想是相当谐星哈哈

很明显吧!

没一天正常的。

我超久没晚上出去跳舞了,久久去一次挺开心的!虽然说我们 4 个女人无法上演 sex and the city,晚上11点就乖乖搭 cab 搭火车去吃夜宵 pizza 然后回家睡觉。



dominoes 好美味~

我好想叫 delivery 但这鬼天气要 delivery boy 受苦太不人道了!

;;;

我的好姐妹 k 说,‘i think you can start dating again.’

‘i think so too.’

男人呢?男人都在哪里?!

我的 Dutch intern 竟然还说,‘you like Asian?’

‘yes.’

‘there are a lot.. here! you have a big choice! just throw!’ *mimics throwing the hook of a fishing rod* 'you will get a lot!'

什么 big choice?!什么 a lot?!intern 你骗我。。

好啦人家应该是把悉尼的 Asian population 跟 Netherlands 的比较。其实这里没有 big choice 也没有 a lot。a lot of 美女就真。

妈呀这雨到底停不停!

STOP!

Sunday, 19 April 2015

Agent Smith

But I believe that, as a species, human beings define their reality through suffering and misery.



I love Agent Smith. It's funny, because I was all about Neo until this scene, which reminded me of.. Didion. We tell ourselves stories in order to live. 

(Plus no matter how violent Smith is, I keep thinking, That's Hugo Weaving and he's in Sydney right now!)

'Can you tell me what it is?'

'Why, Mr Anderson, why? Why? Why do you persist?' (And no, I don't particularly love these 2 lines, I'm just typing whatever.)

Big hearts fluttering all around me.

Smith would hate it.

Anyway I felt a surge of affection for Sydney because most of The Matrix trilogy was filmed here!

It's kinda amazing watching train stations I actually use onscreen! In such awesome scenes!




I still can't tell whether this is St James or Museum, but I personally find that both stations give off similar haunted vibes. They are both this dingy IRL. 

(Note: Wikipedia says it's St James.)

But of course now I can't look at the stations the same way again. 

Next time I see them, in my eyes they're gonna be sparkling with star power!
#明明离拍摄隔了10年

Beh tahan myself.

Night.

Saturday, 18 April 2015

how i became and unbecame dutch over coffee

recently a Dutch intern joined our office.

on her second day, our manager asked, 'who wants coff-?' as he was stepping out of the office.

'is it free? are you paying?' i'd asked immediately.

'wow! you are a Dutch girl!' the real Dutch girl quipped.

'omg Dutch girl with Chinese blood! can't imagine a more potent combination than that!'

"that's where the term 'going Dutch' came from!"

'Dutch people are very.. staingy.. you know?'

''you mean 'stingy'?"

'yes, hahaha!'

'actually, not all Dutch people are stingy.'

'can i have a cappuccino?'

'what? really?'

'yeah.. why?'

'i'll have a soy flat white then.'

'ugh, my coffee tastes funny. i think i'm drinking your coffee.'

'let's swap.'

'why do you drink soy? it tastes so bad.'

'it's weird.'

'i don't like milk.'

'you don't like milk?! what?! oh no, then you're not Dutch!'

apparently Dutch people drink buttermilk.

like the bloody buttermilk i tried to DIY for today's peanut butter snack cake.

epic failure.

i haven't had any baking luck with this house's oven :'(

Thursday, 16 April 2015

coffs day 2 : 超惨的 doringo national park 一日游

经过有点鬼打墙的讨论,我们打算 coffs harbour 第 2 天的行程去 Doringo National Park.

雨下整夜,超好睡的!重点是我们睡到自然醒!哈哈!

这样才像旅行~

回想起我和姐姐去曼谷的时候,付了票钱参观 Grand Palace,结果因为太热,人又太多,看了一下决定回民宿避暑。同行的朋友有点傻眼,但我觉得。。

这样才像旅行~ 旅行就是要放松!休息!充电!

;;;

早上起来又有人准备早餐,把 Costco 买的 danish 放进烤箱烤。

过后还有人烤香肠。

只能说这次旅行大家的服务都太周到了。

最懒的人应该是我。唯一的贡献就是点蚊香,洗碗,切菜和倒垃圾。

洗碗洗到一半还有人来接手。make pancakes make 到一半也是。大家都超热心的!


开车到 national park 的路上经过一个可爱的小镇,便停车喝杯咖啡。


基本上我对陌生的咖啡都有稍微的恐惧,因为有些咖啡真的很。难。喝。

但看在 cafe 是用 bonsoy 的份上尝试一杯。(when a cafe uses Bonsoy, the coffee is usually good. 外加觉得要一整天跟这么多人相处,必须储存力气!)


结果 soy flat white 味道很棒!

还觉得它的 silver pen 很有质感。


到了 national park 雨还在下,我们只好套上垃圾袋+撑伞随便晃一下。

其实可怕的不是雨,而是水蛭!


lookout 桥上看到超强的蜘蛛网。


其实就是一片雾,什么都看不到,但个人觉得好唯美!


唯美的桥被我们变成。。欢乐的桥。。


妈,又是素颜。

这次旅行连化妆品都没带。

毕竟是一起玩了快2年的朋友,况且也没有想诱惑的对象。

75米的桥之旅结束后,我们这车人回小镇。(开一小时车就为了走75米的桥 orz )

但其实超怕水蛭掉在眼睛上!


回程上又停在小镇逛超市 IGA。

竟然在 IGA 看到风沙丸!(解腹泻的中药)

omg 看来真的是 Chinese is everywhere!

我买了一双 rubber gloves,因为没有它们 I cannot bring myself to do the dishes. 但没有贡献又显得太懒,所以就算穷困也得买。

逛完后看看那里的房地产。

回民宿的路上我们有稍微停在 butter factory 与 leather factory,但发现。。所谓的 butter factory 其实是咖啡厅的名字;leather factory 是个小小的工作室,重点是 leather factory 的老板超不友善。

于是我们也没买东西,回家开始做饭。

然后本人负责照相。

毕竟看到很多人塞在一个地方我会紧张。




我也负责 set table,而且每次摆好后,看到这么多人一起吃饭又感觉很 high(前一秒才觉得有人多恐惧症)


最后以 massage train 收尾哈哈。

吃饱饭后有些人打麻将,我则是狂看电影。看完了 Tokyo Drift,接着看 The Maze Runner。但除了觉得漂移很帅之外,没特别感觉。

至于其他女生害怕 Maze Runner 里面的机器怪兽,我无法了解嘿嘿。

本人比较害怕阿飘和精神病这类的,对于机械没什么感觉。

就这样结束了复活节第 2 天!

这晚也是我 2 礼拜以来第一次无梦睡到天亮!爽!

Wednesday, 15 April 2015

the matrix

every day my manager keeps telling me how good Stan is, and how i should totally get it!

recently there really wasn't anything to watch at all, so i signed up for a free trial.

omg it's so good.

i've watched -

four weddings and a funeral

clueless 

the matrix

original sin

the matrix was so good! i kinda recall bits and pieces from watching it in primary/high school but never in one sitting with minimal distraction.

you know me - a part of me is always regarding the world with a sort of detached suspicion. but another part is very pragmatic (thank goodness!) so i guess it shouldn't come as a surprise that i love the matrix! (although.. what's up with Agent Smith? how can he be sick of the matrix? he is the matrix!.. isn't he?)

so.. after the movie, i was lying on my bed and thinking, am i in the matrix? or.. am i just a made-up character in somebody's Sims game? maybe all this, my life, isn't real.

充满营养的思维。

why don't you place your hand on a chopping board..

uh-huh.

take out your Ikea knife..

yeah?

and chop off all your fingers.. then you'll know for sure whether you're in the matrix or in Australia, 2015.

okay, okay, i'm in Australia, 2015.

cut the crazy please.




太帅了,放 2 次

Keanu Reeves!!! i'm probably 15 years late to this party, but better late than never!! i Googled him - he has Chinese blood! a point which i'd excitedly brought up with the new intern at work.

intern: 'ahh, you like Chinese!'

m: 'yes! do you like Dutch?'

intern: 'i'm okay, i like brown hair and blue eyes!'

m: 'ooh, it's very rare to have brown hair and blue eyes!'

intern: 'there's a lot in the Netherlands!'

m: 'i like blond hair! platinum!'

intern: 'oh no! we have a lot in the Netherlands! blond hair is stupid!'

充满营养的对话无误。

it's nice to have another girl in the office.

Saturday, 11 April 2015

Easter at Coffs Harbour 1

After 1.5 years I finally went on holiday!

Going home isn't a real holiday, one gets bogged down by all the little errands, like dentist appointments, toiletries shopping etc.

I've only been on 1 other road trip with friends, so I was pretty psyched about this one! Jon drove me, Sally and Barbs. I offered to drive but he (wisely) declined. The night before I actually drove on the tram tracks, and when I realised my mistake I panicked and ran 2 red lights, causing distress to the poor pedestrians crossing the road. My eyesight is deteriorating, it's scary.

Picture time!



很明显减肥计划没有在实行中



we drove and drove, and stopped along the way so Jon could rest. what an alien concept - in Malaysia dad never seemed to stop driving, unless if it were for a toilet break or for a meal.

our only touristy activity of the day was Bago Maze, where an old man with a blind eye seemed to be running a busy one-man show.


it was a pretty cool maze, big and difficult to get out of!

we were supposed to be on an Easter treasure hunt but because it was getting late, we decided that our priority is to exit the maze without cheating.

i walked with Barbs, which was fun because she's easy to scare. all i have to do is let her lead the way, let myself fall back and hide behind a hedge while she continues talking to me. then she'll realise i'm not behind her and start yelling while backtracking, 'min? min!' which is my cue to jump out while shouting, 'BOOO!!!'

scaring people is so. much. fun.

in the end neither of us displayed any aptitude for directions, and followed the rest of the gang out. oops 本来想当 lone wolf 结果变跟尾狗一直被笑((气

at least Barbs and i got some red coins which nobody found. but everybody got the same cheap chocolates in exchange for the treasure coins.



it would've been nice to try some wines but it was getting dark so we continued on our way to Coffs.

when we arrived at the retreat it was already night. i can't believe i had 0 photos of the house!

we rented a 4-bedroom house in the middle of the woods.

the house was huge, the air was cold, and when everybody was busy splitting rooms, unloading cars and preparing to cook, it felt like i was 4 again and staying at the lodge at the foot of Mt Kinabalu with lots of family.

the downside was that the woods were infested with mosquitoes, so we had to keep the many French doors tightly shut :((

when we started cooking all the smoke indoors was super gross.

after a yummy dinner - so fun to sit at a table of 10 - we chilled.

i shared a room with Barbs and went to bed earlier than her. unfortunately i sat up in bed in my sleep and sleep-talked (sleep-mumbled, really) which gave her a bit of a shock. i'm usually a quiet sleeper so i was a bit surprised myself.

need. to. stop. dreaming.

Thursday, 9 April 2015

the spotless mind

on the way back to Sydney from Coffs Harbour, B suddenly gave a commentary on the car's personalities.

'S is inquisitive.'

'J is inquisitive, too, but doesn't show it.'

'I'm inquisitive myself.'

'And Min is.. lalalalala!'

有点崩溃。

this brings to mind a convo i had with my friend R - we were chatting in the manner one can only do when one is alone with another. i think i was sharing some of the struggles i went through, when she'd suddenly laughed with surprise, exclaiming that she thought i never worried. 'carefree' was the exact word.

despite all the morbid thoughts whirling around in my head, i tend to come across as a very happy-go-lucky and easygoing person.

subjectivity can be amazing.

(it's just like how i remembered myself as a quiet child in primary school, but all my report cards beg to differ - Talkative!

Quite talkative!

Very talkative!

Quite talkative in class!)

((faints

how can my memory be so different from my teacher's perception of me at that time?!

i must say i'm happy with these external perceptions people hold of me. because despite my anxiety and tendency to worry, it seems that on the surface i can still pass off as a chill person. not just a normal person, but way back on the other end of the spectrum as a chill person.

so maybe i am a chill person.

ever since i stopped trying to figure out the meaning of my life - panicking because everyday i was dying a little bit without gaining clarification on why i was alive in the first place - i feel much calmer.

复习一下-

The end of the race is just a temporary marker without much significance.  It's the same with our lives. Just because there's an end doesn't mean existence has meaning.

Murakami i love you!!!

Wednesday, 1 April 2015

dreams, dreams dreams dreams

i have been dreaming intensely over the past week.

usually at 10pm i'm off electronics and getting ready to shower then read in bed.

at 11pm i switch off the lights and close my eyes..

.. and then the dreams start.

after one dream ends the next one begins.

and i wake with a shock - on Sunday i woke at 6am! - even more exhausted from all the activities i've been doing in my sleep.

i can't really remember the content, but as i go about my day i'll have this flash of deja vu and think, ah i dreamed of this last night!

however 2 dreams stood out - the first one was from last week or before. i was talking to Murakami's wife, sitting at a table. Somehow she reminded me of Didion. after our chat i went for a walk with Murakami himself, and we discussed his age briefly.

什么鬼梦。as a hot-blooded 25-year-old i should be dreaming of Yamapi if i wanted to see Japanese men in my sleep -

Yamapi
怎么会跑去梦个老男人 Murakami

My beloved Murakami
竟然连别人的老婆也不放过-

Murakami and wife
连我自己都被我对 Murakami 的爱吓到。

除了这位老男人,我昨晚梦到了另一个老男人。

就是陈外公。

in my dream, grandpa Tan was.. singing Andy Lau songs!

don't ask me which one, i just knew it was an Andy Lau song!

he was at the karaoke. (my dream is so not anchored in any form of reality whatsoever.)

then daddy said, 'this is all for the best. the old businesses can't keep up. the prices of iron ore are falling, but he doesn't know it yet.'

next thing i knew, i was clubbing in a supermarket.

one of my girlfriends were there dancing in front of the cereal display with me, but i can't recall who.

then i woke up before my alarm went off.

today 二阿姨 sent through a video of grandpa Tan in hospital. in the video he still looked okay, unlike his last days as a skeleton. and he was talking eloquently in Hokkien about how blur my grandma Tan is. (grandma Tan suffers from mild dementia sometimes.)

i couldn't understand the whole video, and called 二阿姨 for a translation. she was with mum and put her on the line.

there's something about a mother's voice which makes daughters teary.

seeing that video made me a little sad, even though i wasn't close to grandpa Tan at all. i still miss them. sometimes i'll be pottering about at home and suddenly realise i have tears on my face.

every day i talk to grandpa Lim. nothing special, sometimes it's just a greeting. i'm going to do it for 3 months, then wean myself off it. maybe.

it's 10.32pm now, time to brush my teeth and prepare for my nightly adventures.

please let me dream of Yamapi tonight!